Meanderings

So much has changed in my life recently. And a lot of it has been intentional, focused change.  I'm dancing so much more. More than I ever have. And it feels good.  My class is into its 2nd week and seems to be doing well, my students love it and its working for them so far, they aren't hurting themselves and this is good.  I've made new friends, and split paths with old  friends. And even though the paths have split, we can still see each other through the woods and we grin and wave as we travel. Is it possible to hold hands across different paths? I think so. 
It seems like I'm home so much more, and I don't mind. I'm thouroughly enjoying being home, folding laundry and playing Wii bowling with my kids and Husband. 
I've come to terms with a few things in my life, specifically on metaphysical/spiritual levels.  I'm done resisting the callings put upon me.  And just saying to My Lady, and My Lord "Ok. I give up. What do you need me to do?" for the moment seems to be enough. Emphasis here being "for the moment".
Got an "Innappropriate Tarot Reading" that said Stop kissing the ass that's shitting on you.  I've stopped.  And its an amazing lightening of the soul to stop doing that which is not conducive to my highest good.

I read a book the other day called "A Nameless Witch". It was a great book, full of witchly wisdom of just being that which you are. 

I am being that which I am. And nothing less.

be Gentle, its my first time...

Blogging that is.  So I have a few friends that have been telling me I need to do an online blog. I finally gave in.  So here you will be reading about my adventures in childrearing, being a military wife, bellydancing and my spirituality.  So let's clarify, shall we?  I have been married for 7 years to the same incredible wonderful man, we met when we were 15 years old and have been practically inseperable since. I am one of those very lucky people who met the love of their life as a teenager.  His name is Bear and he's kind and funny and generous and is intent on spoiling me rotten, which is ok, because he claims I spoil him right back. I have two children; Jade who is five years old and is a serious tomboy, but not the sporty kind. She's into Super Heroes and dragons and tigers.  But she loves flowers and teddy bears and butterflies too.  She likes to pretend she's Buffy the Vampire Slayer, which I think is pretty cool. My son, River, is two and everything that a rambunctious two year old boy should be. He's very curious and mischievious and is having a bromance with Diego the Animal Rescuer.  I swear the child is half tree frog, as he can literally scale walls (and refridgerators).  My husband is in the military, which for the most part is pretty good. Yes, deployments are hard and stressful and they suck big purple monkey toes, but when he's home, its good. Mostly.  I am a bellydancer, not a professional one, but I'm working my up there. I perform regularly both as a soloist and in a troupe. We do mostly tribal fusion and ATS (American Tribal Style) bellydancing. And we have a blast.  I am also a pagan. The most common term associated with paganism is Wicca, but I'm not wiccan. Wiccan influenced, but not wiccan. My spirituality is my own and my path is individual. I pull from many different doctrines and faiths from around the world, because I recognize the truth in all of them.  I am an avid reader, I go through books like most people go through tv shows or soda cans. I also love movies and music. So I'll probobly get all gushy occasionally about some book/song/movie I just entertained myself with. 
Now for some things that aren't quite so fun.  I have fibromyalgia. Which is characterized by chronic all over body pain, although there is a lot more to it than that.  I also have problems with low self esteem, but this is mostly under control, thanks to belly dancing.  In a lot of ways, belly dancing changed, if not saved, my life.  But I will get into that more later.  So here's hoping I teased your interest and you'll come back for more...


Affirmations for the Everyday Goddess: Major Arcana
17: The Star
I am always growing with wisdom and spiritual knowledge.
"May I become my highest potential"
 Don't be afraid of growth and change, as it contributes to your highest good. Look for the lessons in these changes and use them to your benefit. Life is a learning process. You are both student and teacher.